I'm pretty sure I jinxed myself. Just last night, I turned to Paul as we lazed on the couch and asked, "Can you believe we're so calm about being pregnant?" He couldn't.
Well, never mind. This morning I awoke from a very vivid dream in which Dr. H. performed our first ultrasound (which is still 8 days away), and my uterus was completely empty. There was not only no embryo with a heartbeat, which is what we hope to see, but there wasn't even a gestational sac. Nothing...like I was never pregnant.
Needless to say, I'm not feeling very calm today. Pregnancy symptoms this early come and go, but even knowing that (and having experienced it with the twins), I can't shake this feeling of dread. I decided if I still felt this way on Friday, I'd go have Dr. M.'s office run another beta (one that Dr. H. didn't request; that office only wanted the two I already got). After messaging with a friend, though, (hi EJ!) I decided to go today.
Sierra was great. The test may not be run until tomorrow because the lab director isn't in today, but even knowing it will be helps.
Anything can happen between today and next Thursday (hell, anything can happen at any point from here in out). I can only pray my dream does not come true...
Edited to add: my beta was 4,830. The doubling rate has slowed a bit, but is still faster than it was with the twins. I feel better now!